for you in Christ Jesus. NIV I Thessalonians 5:16-18

Today especially, it has been so hard to abide by the will of God for me.......after being told I was not being offered an articling position at the firm I've been working at this summer.

I've been struggling with the decision of whether to continue my Bay St. romp or move on to what I know to be my heart's true passions................and I knew without a doubt the best decision would be to pursue the latter.  But still, I couldn't let go of the security of articling at a Bay St. firm.  I didn't have to make the decision on my own.....it was made for me.....God closed a door that I was powerless to....Though we may not see it at the time, God directs our attitudes and actions to reflect our God-given passions....Praise Him!

On sunday, Kenny preached about how, like He did with Abraham, God will call us to the test of faith that is required to be His servant.  How faithful....how obedient....how trusting was Abraham .......How perfect God's provision was in response.  Despite all the reasons God gives me....it is such a struggle to be joyful, pray continually and give thanks in ALL circumstances. 

2 things:

1.  I am worried about my future.  I'm so afraid that I'll let the world and its standards and competition overcome me.

2.  I know I shouldn't worry about my future.  God is a good God.  He has shown His love and greatness throughout history and in my very life. 

So, it is my prayer that He will pour out His strength into my life in all areas as I face this test of faith.  That He would give me the faithfulness to remember I am not competing for an earthly prize, but the wisdom to overcome obstacles that may come on earth--in order for His name to be greater through my life. 

What i loved about xanga when i joined was the fact that it was more than just a stalking device (like facebook)...

I love that ppl actually expressed deeper issues, etc.  or just told funny stories....

Anyway, to the point I was trying to make when I decided to blog today....umm.....oh yes, I was thinking about V-day and like....how ppl call it different things based on their status eg. "single awareness day" or "the best day in the world" hahahahaha......

Overall, it is a celebration of love....and this V-day, I want to dedicate to my 1st and greatest love....Jesus Christ.  No one does a better job of it than him....

Funny how most ppl we love we wanna keep all to ourselves...to hoard all the goodness for ourselves, etc.  But with Him, it's like......dude, you gotta know him....and i'm fully supportive of sharing this love....

So, happy v-day to Him and to all of you!~  For we are loved by the greatest and most perfect love.

Back to School = Boooooooooooo!

back to school sucks!!!  LoL.....

this break was just what i was hoping for though, so, perhaps going back to the inevitable refreshed is more than i can ask for~

Lesson of the Season: Christmas is a reminder of the sacrifices made for us and by us (past, present and future)

Pictures to accompany the great times had:

Visiting Sandra, Stan and Eleanor with the homegirls

Lunch at the all-american diner

Going crazy while waiting for too long at the border

friends.....

bible study class girl's night

Winter Break 06'

I don't think i've ever gone away during winter break before....now that i'm back, i feel like i've lived an entire year since my vacation....summer to winter in just 5 days is so strange and definitely worth every moment and penny spent~

Here are some highlights...(key west pictures are on an underwater camera, cause we went snorkeling, so, those ones aren't displayed here, sorry~)

My Cousin Jiyoon in the main atrium

Us at dinner

The ship at night (so pretty)

Calica, Mexico port of call

Calica, Mexico

Me, Tour Guide dude, and SNAKE!

Inside the caverns in mexico (aktun chen)

Me and cousin in cavern

Hard to make out, but, this is a natural pool inside the cavern, it was the final stop on the cavern tour....amazing~

Inside the cavern & small natural puddles of fresh water

At beach in Mexico

Me and cousin with tans in one of the ship lounges~ hehee

Cruise ship at night from a distance

Me and cousin annoyed at the fact that we had to wait for almost 3 hours for some people we were escorting to the airport

South Beach, Miami

Lincoln Road shopping district, Miami

GRAND FINALE!!!!

ME AND CHAD LOWE!!!!  I soooooo stalked him at the Miami airport, but, it was sooooo worth it~

p.s. i am now a different ethinicity (mexican seniorita~)

THE VERDICT IS IN!

HA!  I will be in TORONTO this summer with all my peeps!!  You all thought you could get away from me huh?  no way man.....................she's found her way back to you all!

no, but seriously.........i'll be summering at a management side labour boutique from may to august at Mathews Dinsdale & Clark LLP.......the OCI (on-campus interview) process ended well with an offer from the firm I was hoping to get into.   It was the craziest process in life.....I felt like I was on "The Apprentice" going through stages of interviews and meeting partners, associates, students, etc.....and wine-ing/dining with the interviewers and other candidates. 

Let me say: PRAISE GOD!  My prayer throughout all of this was that these people who i met would see me as I know our heavenly father sees all of us....with such favour.....for just being ourselves......and I can honestly say....I felt His presence through it all...........and here i am! 

I remember starting law school and hearing so much buzz about how important it was to be on Bay St. and how competitive it is to get there.....and I told myself i'd stick to government side work or legal aid.  wow..............i was wrong about where i'd end up for sure!!  I guess we'll see where this leads me.....and i'm interested to see how God will use this opportunity for him.....excited and so very thankful....

I know I don't really deserve to be on Bay St. based on the world's standards of merit and acheivement.....so many people work so much harder and wanted it so much more than me........I will not take this for granted....and I ask for you to join me in prayer for humility and grace throughout......

Thanks to all who encouraged me and had so much faith that God would bring me through this ..... without all of that.....this time would have been so much harder~  This joy is just as much all of yours as it is mine~  Let's celebrate!!